Now some of y’all (digging out of my northeastern-birth roots and into my southern-transplant roots) may think I’m a little looney for saying this; but even at my age, I really WOULD like to fall in love again. Yes, I can hear your giggling. ☺️ Well, I’m not dead! So, for quite a while, I went to the usual places we tend to look—like church, the gym, etc., I even went online for a while after my sneaky kids set up a dating profile and didn’t tell me. 🤣 But, still nothing. The loneliness and strong desire to love someone and be loved was always in the back of my mind. Sometimes it was more intense than others. The ironic part is all the time I was growing in my relationship with God, I never learned to trust Him with my desire for a relationship with a man.
It was always Kimberly looking for someone in her own wisdom and driven by her own desires.
Several months ago God showed me that I really had not turned over this area of my life to Him. I was kind of shocked at myself. It just really had not occurred to me that God cared enough about me to also take care of my love-life. I figured He wouldn’t know the kind of man I wanted. It just showed me how ignorant I was of God’s love for me.
God IS LOVE and so, of course, He cares about my love life!
After God showed me I needed to trust Him in this area of my life, I prayed a simple prayer:
God, You know that I strongly desire to have a relationship with a man. But in the meantime, I don’t want to waste the time You have given me feeling lonely or dissatisfied. Because I am confident You have a plan for each day of my life, I am asking you to either [here it is the most important part of the prayer]—take away my desire OR—to send me a man who loves You with all his heart! I would LOVE to serve You with a man; but if that is not Your plan, then take away my desire to be with a man and replace it with the complete satisfaction of Your presence.
I prayed with confidence that God heard my prayer and would answer it. I only prayed this once. I left it there. About a month later, I realized a miracle had happened. I wasn’t lonely. I wasn’t looking.
My heart was free from dissatisfaction and loneliness.
Let me explain why this is such a tremendous miracle. All my life (well, since late high school, anyway), I’d always found my greatest value in a relationship with a man. I was driven by my need to find a man who would provide physical and emotional affection as well as financial security. I put little to no priority on finding a man who loved God with all his heart. That’s because I didn’t love God with all my heart either! So, of course, I failed to recognize how critical this was to a healthy relationship. But, during my journey with God in the last 11 years, my desires have radically changed. My greatest value is found in my relationship with GOD.
So…HOW did God answer my prayer for a boyfriend?
God took away my burning desire for a relationship with a man and replaced it with an even greater desire for Him. This is truly an unexpected miracle. God daily assures me He will meet all my needs. I completely trust His plan for my love life. I KNOW I’m not missing a thing. God plans each day and He gives me MORE satisfaction than I could have ever imagined. I am praying that He keeps my heart in this pattern of complete satisfaction until He sends the right man. Or, if I am to live out my years without a relationship with a man, then I pray He keeps me completely satisfied on that path. I have never had such an amazing life as He has given me now. What an amazing God we serve, who knows us better than we know ourselves. Who cares for us more than we care for ourselves. He is sooooo worthy of our greatest trust!
Now, maybe this story does nothing for you; but I can tell you from personal experience, that God cares about your deepest desires. He knows what will satisfy you better than you do. He desires to give you the greatest satisfaction you could ever experience. Imagine having what you want the most. Now imagine having it all the time. THAT is the experience of God’s presence, my dear friend!
“Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.”
Psalms 37:4
“The Lord will guide you continually, And satisfy your soul in drought, And strengthen your bones; You shall be like a watered garden, And like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail.”
Isaiah 58:11
“You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”
Psalms 16:11
When you surrender every part of your life to God, He becomes the greatest desire of your heart and…you WILL be completely satisfied.
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